KittyHawk
Active Member
Hi all,
Some of you might remember me. I already had a topic here once.
Since last time I was writing here, I had some good weeks and months and even achieved some half-decent erection during intercourse. Funnily enough, even real sex orgasm was sometimes a trigger that pushed me back to PMO.
My current progress: I watch porn couple times a month. But I also keep falling for long edging sessions without porn. Especially nights and mornings in bed are turning into compulsive problem. When I am half asleep, my inhibitions are lower and my addiction is abusing it.
Longest recent victory was 13 days. Right now I am 4 days porn-free but I did some edging this morning just with my fantasy.
I know very well how damaging those edging sessions are to my recovery. Over last couple years, when I tried to quit porn so bad, I brought the art of porn-less edging to a new level. It has nothing to do with normal quick masturbation and I am able to get to insane dopamine rush.
My goal is to be completely PMO free and just keep rewiring with my wife.
I am mobilizing every possible resource this time. Keeping a journal here might be another piece of puzzle that will hold me accountable.
Some of you might remember me. I already had a topic here once.
Since last time I was writing here, I had some good weeks and months and even achieved some half-decent erection during intercourse. Funnily enough, even real sex orgasm was sometimes a trigger that pushed me back to PMO.
My current progress: I watch porn couple times a month. But I also keep falling for long edging sessions without porn. Especially nights and mornings in bed are turning into compulsive problem. When I am half asleep, my inhibitions are lower and my addiction is abusing it.
Longest recent victory was 13 days. Right now I am 4 days porn-free but I did some edging this morning just with my fantasy.
I know very well how damaging those edging sessions are to my recovery. Over last couple years, when I tried to quit porn so bad, I brought the art of porn-less edging to a new level. It has nothing to do with normal quick masturbation and I am able to get to insane dopamine rush.
My goal is to be completely PMO free and just keep rewiring with my wife.
I am mobilizing every possible resource this time. Keeping a journal here might be another piece of puzzle that will hold me accountable.