i am exactaly on the same place as you man and we will do it!!!!!! i say to myself a phew words when i want to relapse who i want to be now and that helps me other thing that gets me going is to connect to real people it can really make you take your mind of this things also therapy its greaaaat when you can open up about your problems we are going to make it!!!
I see you struggling too, just like me. But if there's anything we are, we are fighters and we know what's at stake if don't get back in our feet.
I would advice you to try looking back at your best streak and remember what you did that helped you achieve it. Then recommit to doing so. One of the challenges in recovery is staying disciplined, that's my biggest drawdown. To keep doing the work when everything seems fine and the we are less sensitized, that's the struggle.