Do, as always, I'm inspired by you getting up, no matter what, no matter how many times you fall... Never give up, never give in, never quit on trying to quit. If something's not working with method or motivation, we can change that, but that you always get up is awesome!
[no matter how many times you fall] ...the next morning is yours for you to recapture the equanimity and self-respect of your mindful self- Stanton Peele.
You know what you want, and you will succeed in getting it!