My wife came upstairs and was very upset. She wanted to talk. She had found a porn site open on my laptop. I could have lied and said it was a popup but I've been lying about it, to her and myself for too long. I've been lying about a lot of stuff. I'm done with it. I feel so much clearer right now and it's only been a few days. How do I hold on to this? How worried should I be about this "high" falling away and falling back into it?