workinprogressUK
Well-Known Member
I have avoided sex with my SO at points in time, because I didn't feel able to participate without "brain porn" and, at those times, it felt more important to me to avoid the P than to have sex. With the benefit of hindsight.... I'm not sure it was the right course of action.... for me, because it sent out some seriously confusing signals to my wife, and probably contributed to emotional and physical withdrawal on both sides. I'm not saying it's wrong for you.... or right . I'm much better able to separate the two nowadays and stay present, after many years of stumbling recovery, but I still cross the line sometimes. For me... and again, these are just my experiences and views.... I've been more able to stay mindfully in the moment when I've felt a warm, emotional, connection with my wife..... than when I just felt horny and wanted to get my rocks off. Don't know if that makes any sense to you or others. Wishing you a successful day.