Hey all,
today is day 10. Going very well. I'm happy right now. I'm not driven by fear or anxiety of relapse. I am moving forward this time by meeting my need for power in a healthier way. It's not enough for me to say I am strong enough, I need to show myself. The exercise is really excellent.
Things are looking up. I won't get overconfident though. I was thinking the other day about PMO, how badly I didn't want to, how I didn't like it. Then I was like "who am I kidding!?" Of course I like it and of course I want to. That's what addiction is. Recovery is growing past what I want and like when I see it isn't healthy for me. The fact of the matter is I like it and it's fun and I can have it whenever I want. But it doesn't serve me. It is detrimental to my life and I am learning healthier ways of living than through PMO. I'm never going to get to a point where I don't feel triggers, and porn is always going to seem appealing in a way. That's just the way it is. But I am finding a better way of living without it and that is the bottom line, no argument.
We're in this together.
today is day 10. Going very well. I'm happy right now. I'm not driven by fear or anxiety of relapse. I am moving forward this time by meeting my need for power in a healthier way. It's not enough for me to say I am strong enough, I need to show myself. The exercise is really excellent.
Things are looking up. I won't get overconfident though. I was thinking the other day about PMO, how badly I didn't want to, how I didn't like it. Then I was like "who am I kidding!?" Of course I like it and of course I want to. That's what addiction is. Recovery is growing past what I want and like when I see it isn't healthy for me. The fact of the matter is I like it and it's fun and I can have it whenever I want. But it doesn't serve me. It is detrimental to my life and I am learning healthier ways of living than through PMO. I'm never going to get to a point where I don't feel triggers, and porn is always going to seem appealing in a way. That's just the way it is. But I am finding a better way of living without it and that is the bottom line, no argument.
We're in this together.