Starting a new journey to recovery

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Readytoreboot

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Day 11- Yesterday was a bit of a challenge, stronger than usual desires to watch some Porn. I'm feeling horny af in general and that's also adding to the desire for PMO but I resisted and made it thru the day. Much more of an easy day today, no desire to look at P and feel like my mind is so much more clear without it.
 
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Day 12- Exercise, meditation and filling my day with little tasks. Keeping busy is the key to start out. Also cultivating one self in every way possible. I read, I write, I play music, watch motivational videos. Ive come to the realization that I have to be relentless to beat this Pmo addiction. I have to create the highest version of myself day by day.
 
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Day 13- Its been a few months since I've been consistent like this. I'm starting to remember what it feels like to live a clean life again. Another thing that has been helpful on my journey has been cleaning. It helps to keep me busy and It feels like my place is also clean in an energetic sense as well as literally. Porn is dirty and brings my energy down and right now I'm feeling the opposite of that.
 
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Day 16- Stronger feelings of wanting to have an orgasm. It was an extremely overwhelming feeling for a few moments but I got through it. I know that If I could have sex with a woman right now that I would not turn it down but I have to resist PMO with everything I've got because one slip will put me right back into that cycle. Im very horny in general and Im getting random wood at times. I can feel my sexual energy is strong because I'm not giving it away senselessly. I will keep on moving forward and staying strong in the face of great temptation.
 
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Day 20- Sexual energy is high today. I felt stronger Porn urges but got thru them and let the feeling pass. There was a feeling I had that felt like I was missing out on something and its probably a withdrawal feeling from being on a no PMO streak.
 
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Day 21- Stretching and weights to start my day. 30 mins of reading and work to keep me busy. An easier day than yesterday for sure. I realize that its a day to day battle and some days I have resist with everything I've got and other days its almost effortless. The point of this No fap journey is to get through it and keep moving forward. On to the next day!
 
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Day 26- Started the day with stretching and weights. Got 20 mins of sun and fresh air in the park. My life feels balanced right now and I can feel that doors are opening for me in a positive way because Ive been making an effort to build the highest version of myself. My energy has changed in a good way and I know its because Ive given up PMO.
 
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Day 29- Was a stressful day for me and I felt like I was being triggered by everything to relapse. That "reward demon" from porn in my brain is fighting for its life because it wants me to give in. Its like a parasite that I've been feeding all these years and now that I'm starving it dead its fighting for its survival. I didn't give in and stayed the course but I have to be ready for that kind of great temptation again.
 
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Readytoreboot said:
Day 29- Was a stressful day for me and I felt like I was being triggered by everything to relapse. That "reward demon" from porn in my brain is fighting for its life because it wants me to give in. Its like a parasite that I've been feeding all these years and now that I'm starving it dead its fighting for its survival. I didn't give in and stayed the course but I have to be ready for that kind of great temptation again.
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Good job staying strong.
 
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