DAY 49
Today was great. Got through 7 weeks! Feels surreal, but I hope that this streak will be the one that leads to recovery (trying to stay humble and cautious all the while). I went to church today, read, took my Sunday slow, played some piano, and overall really enjoyed my day. I ate really good too! I did have an extremely strange sexual dream last night, and I MO'd in the dream and felt very realistic shame and guilt, and was so thankful when I woke up and realized none of it was real. The Exodus 90 program starts tomorrow, so no more sweets or snacks (I indulged today in light of this haha). I feel like the program will be very fruitful. As a hobby to occupy time until the semester starts in light of this 90 day program, I got a Notre Dame Cathedral Lego Set! It's a bit childish of course, but I've always liked Legos as a kid and seeing my friend's kids get Legos for Christmas made me envious haha. It's a complicated set for adults, so I'm hoping it's efficient at taking up time in a healthy cerebral way. Spring semester starts in 3 weeks, so once that gets going I won't have to worry about not having things to do anymore. Looking ahead to complete week 8 now! I love my life without P and I love God for healing and repairing my brokenness and always giving me a second chance at being with Him.
Thanks for the encouragement! Everyone's help is indispensable.