Day 143.
Daily Goals | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday | Friday |
Get up at 8 AM 20% Completed | Completed | Not completed | Not completed | Not completed | Not completed |
Meditate two times at least 5 minutes 100% Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed |
Spend at least 15 minutes on a yoga matt. 100% Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed |
Spend 30 minutes every day learning Arabic.100% Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed |
Spend 1 hour reading for fun. 100% Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed | Completed |
This was a good week. I had no problems completing my goals except the one about getting up at 8 AM. It will take more focus and willpower from me and I really didn't give it much of a try this week. I had it as a goal, but it wasn't
really a goal. I sort of ignored it. Next week I will make more of an effort to get up early! Part of the solution is going to bed earlier. I have this bad habit of staying up late at night.
It has been a while since I wrote here about my thoughts and feelings. I have in recent weeks been posting only once a week to report how I've been doing with my goals. This makes it easier for me to see my progress I think.
I really like this strategy of working with weekly goals and putting them in tables. I believe that it really helps me to keep my focus on the right things. I feel in control and those days where I have lost control I have only had what I call "slips" that aren't as serious as a full blown relapse. So even when I have lost control, I have´still felt that I have had some control. I haven't had any serious urges. I have MO:d a few times but it has felt very safe and natural. I haven't had the chaser-effect. I no longer feel that there is a strong connection between MO and P. Even though I have used YT in a way similar to P, I have never felt the urge to take it a step further. Still, it is something that I avoid doing.
I have unblocked YT. Still blocking YT worked as a symbolic action and I haven't abused YT since I blocked it and unblocked it.
I have started a tinder-account and I have been having nice conversations with a woman there. In the past, starting a Tinder-account has been a red flag for me but this time I feel that I have things under control.
I feel like I'm in a good place in my life right now. The state of the world is another thing but I can't spend my time worrying about things out of my control.
I really like the goal I have about spending 15 minutes on a yoga-mat. Some days I have exercised other days I have done stretches. The more long-term goal is to start going to the gym but because of the pandemic I will stay away from gyms for a while.
Well. I would like to say more but I don't really have much to say right now.
Hey
@Emptyroom. I just wanted to let you know that seeing you're continued commitment and conviction to reboot and reach freedom from P is really inspiring for me. I appreciate your honesty in your postings and how much insight you provide about your process and state of mind. I'm glad you've found (and continue to refine) a process that works for you - and I hope you don't feel like you're pushing yourself too hard. Keep it up, man!
Thank you very much! That makes me glad that you can get something out of what I write here. I hope things are going well for you! Right now I'm not feeling like I'm pushing myself to hard. I am trying to be nice to myself but also, I want to challenge myself. The secret I guess is to choose a good time to challenge yourself.
Have a great day!
/Emptyroom