Innocence
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[Day 10]
I spent my new years eve alone, I was still feeling depressed and my mother went to her boyfriend.
The friend I usually spent my new years eve with was in America with our other friend who moved back there.
Luckily I had a friend online who lived in the USA and therefor she didn't mind spending time with me until the clock had hit 12.
After 12 I went to a friend, invited another friend and she invited someone else.
As we live in a small town, doesn't mean there isn't a party. Normally I would hate party's like that, but I wanted to give it a try.
I had been alone the entire evening after all, had to socialize and after all it was fun.
Got slightly drunk and to there was another friend (well it's a small town, you see a lot of old friends) who had some weed so I didn't say no to that either.
After a lot of dancing, laughing and just in general having fun at 4.00 AM the party was over and we went to our homes.
Sadly, my bike was blown up by fireworks, well it still works.... Partly..
When I got home, I went straight to bed and slept quite deep.
Today, I woke up somewhere around 5.00 PM, was still a little bit fuzzy from the night.
Luckily no hang-over because I didn't drank that much anyway but as the brainfog disappeared I started feeling miserable again.
I think it's because what has been going on the last few days, loneliness and just anxiety for financial subjects and of course stress for school.
Life is being a really tough one and sometimes I just want to give up.. Not on PMO, but on everything else.
I spent my new years eve alone, I was still feeling depressed and my mother went to her boyfriend.
The friend I usually spent my new years eve with was in America with our other friend who moved back there.
Luckily I had a friend online who lived in the USA and therefor she didn't mind spending time with me until the clock had hit 12.
After 12 I went to a friend, invited another friend and she invited someone else.
As we live in a small town, doesn't mean there isn't a party. Normally I would hate party's like that, but I wanted to give it a try.
I had been alone the entire evening after all, had to socialize and after all it was fun.
Got slightly drunk and to there was another friend (well it's a small town, you see a lot of old friends) who had some weed so I didn't say no to that either.
After a lot of dancing, laughing and just in general having fun at 4.00 AM the party was over and we went to our homes.
Sadly, my bike was blown up by fireworks, well it still works.... Partly..
When I got home, I went straight to bed and slept quite deep.
Today, I woke up somewhere around 5.00 PM, was still a little bit fuzzy from the night.
Luckily no hang-over because I didn't drank that much anyway but as the brainfog disappeared I started feeling miserable again.
I think it's because what has been going on the last few days, loneliness and just anxiety for financial subjects and of course stress for school.
Life is being a really tough one and sometimes I just want to give up.. Not on PMO, but on everything else.