Day 640
90 days to two years!
We need to avoid the super duper stimuli like porn completely. But the small natural things like hot women in real life is enjoying life in a natural/healthy way. as long as we are also not overdoing this/abusing this as porn sub
Yes this is how I see it
@swimmer97. That's a great comment.
It's a matter of really knowing yourself deep inside, instead of relying on hard and fast unchangeable rules. Obviously, if seeing hot women in yoga pants, or sexy ads on TV and YouTube is not helping your sobriety, well, you don't need to look at them, period. It's really as simple as that. But that might change as you go further along on your journey, thus, you might be able to carefully and mindfully change some of your rules. For me personally, trying NOT to notice something or think something "naughty" in this case, say a beautiful woman at the gym, only makes the situation that much worse. It's like what they say in psychology about The Pink Elephant Paradox. Telling someone not to think about a pink elephant sitting in the room, only makes them think about it all the more. Suddenly, they're walking around getting pink elephant triggers 24/7. It's the same way with "triggers" with porn.
I think this is where I find myself disagreeing the most with the religious person when it comes to porn or lust, and what to do about it. Of course, that's just my history and interpretation of my own past religious experiences, I'm not saying that's the same for everyone. However, seeing a beautiful woman at the gym and wanting to have sex with her, noticing her legs, butt, breasts, and wanting to do (or at wishing to do), fun things with her in bed, is completely natural and is NOT bad or morally wrong per se. It's as natural as needing to take a shit in the morning, and none of us would propose that we should try to fight that urge! In fact, the more we try NOT to think about the fact that we need to take a shit, the more we think about it, and the more we get triggered about it. Or maybe that's just me.
But in all seriousness, you cannot NOT think about hot women! It just doesn't work that way. So I would propose, instead of walking around trying not to "lust" (an impossible deed if they're ever was one!), we should rather walk around thinking about our goals and asperations in life, and how lucky we are to have another day to strive towards them. Then, when we happen to see a beautiful creature before us, and those natural thoughts come pouring in, we can acknowledge the beauty before us, we can even appreciate it for a brief moment, and THEN, turn our thoughts back to higher things and deeds. The thoughts aren't bad in of themselves, it's what we do with them is what matters in the end. But if your entire day revolves around trying not to lust or getting triggered, well, you've just spent the whole day thinking about the very thing you don't want to do. That pink elephant is no longer sitting in a chair, he's literally living right in our brain. No thanks.
Writing all this makes me think of another thought. Don't we have anything better to do in our lives, than just trying NOT to lust or look at porn? Is this not the real fucking problem in the first place? If you have no other goals or asperations in life besides
fighting porn and
lust, well, you just found your problem. Find your mission in life. Seek out understanding of the world. Become fucking curious about everything, and then, you won't find yourself with hours on end to look at porn or trying NOT to lust.
Porn is a symptom not the disease.