Day 629
Thanks gents,
@SmokenMirrors and
@First_step_thousand_miles, I really appreciate the encouragement. At this point I'm not too scared about this happening (I know it will pass), I think it's more just the curiosity of wondering how the brain works and how those old porn pathways still can give me a little hell that I find interesting. My cycles of flatlines have always gone like this: suddenly having vivid dreams, then sexualized thought patterns, then flatline, usually in that order, and sometimes, no sleep. Well, I had those dreams a few weeks ago, then that crazy bout of pornified thoughts (the worst I've had in half a year), then now a flatline that is also the worst I've had in probably a half a year. Also this week, sleep isn't terrible, but it's not great either. I've never been this far out before, and I think my mind is trying to fight it.
You all have a great porn-free Sunday.