Finally, I'm doing this…

Blondie

Blondie

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My man.

I don't know about you @Ezel, but although you and I are not as far out as we might wish to be, being 20 and 30 days out feels like a dream come true. :cool:

Let us never forget this feeling.
 
Ezel

Ezel

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Blondie said:
How we doing @Ezel?
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i relapsed yesterday man. the day went great and got a lot of things done.
when the night came and I went to bed, I couldn't sleep, and my phone was close to me. i got bored and curious at the same time. a fatal combination, and the rest is history...
 
Blondie

Blondie

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Hey @Ezel , it's okay. When we're on the ground, there's only two things to do: keep digging a hole and make it worse, or get back up and get on that horse again. I commend you, it takes balls to come on here and say you fell off the horse. I would suggest you use those same balls and get back on the horse. :cool: We believe in you, please believe in yourself.
 
Ezel

Ezel

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Day 1 (no po, no mo) monk mode.
I messed up yesterday. I have to step my game up. I'm going to start My final semester to get my degree next week. If I keep screwing things up like this. I don't know where I might end up 5 years from now.
This is stressing me a lot lately, I think it's was caused my recent setback...
I will just have to keep trying, that's my only option right now...
Keep pushing guys.
God bless.
 
Blondie

Blondie

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It happens @Ezel. What you've done once you can do again. Just dust off your duster and let's get moving.

Good luck on this semester.

Best
 
Ezel

Ezel

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Blondie said:
It happens @Ezel. What you've done once you can do again. Just dust off your duster and let's get moving.

Good luck on this semester.

Best
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Thanks Blondie. The thing about these relapses is the more you fall into them, the more it becomes harder to quit, when your junkie brain is fed up with that dopamine fasting then it's like a switch has been turned on to get his dopamine fix from anything that comes your way, social media, staring at women, and all this is just preparing you up for the slippery slope which is porn, and the rest is automatic...

This is what upsets me the most, not having the slightest control over this automatic behavior, as soon as it kicks in. Know that it's too late. I can say that even your free will won't save you. Only god's grace and mercy will save you at this point. Which is a big thing I'm proponent of.

See this thing of using the mind to control the mind that we are all doing works to some extent. I think you have to dive in deep and reach to that spiritual power. That's I think the way to go. You have to surpass the mind which is filled with porn images, and get hold of that spirituality within you.

Our whole world is dominated by the material aspect, but to every matter there's another side we don't see. We keep focusing on our material aspect and neglect the spiritual side and soon after we fall back again to porn. Trying to fill in the void within us (due to neglecting our spirituality) in a desperate way. But what we are actually doing is just making that hole worse and bigger...

Sorry for my rant. This is just my two cents.
Keep fighting...
 
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