I’m using this family visit as a springboard to get this streak really going, since there is practically no opportunity to engage in any damaging behaviour. In 10 days I will be back home entering the weekend, so that will be my next challenge. Getting some things lined up to work on that weekend to keep me busy and moving in the right direction.
Three weeks. I’m having really vivid dreams now, last night it was a sexual dream involving my ex. It’s strange that I don’t have any sexual experience that doesn’t involve her. I want to change that.
Generally I’m feeling pretty good. Visiting family always makes me sort of lose myself, it’s not a lot better than it used to be but maybe a small step up.
At least I’m staying away from porn, and that’s good. Having some euphoric recall, mostly from a previous relapse (same actress). Got no choice but to think about something else right now, so hoping those thoughts get weaker over the next five days.