Thanks, man!
The second date went really well, actually so well I’m almost a little worried and wondering if it’s going too fast. But there’s not a doubt in my mind that I want to be with her, and after last night I know she feels the same way.
I won’t bore you guys with a lot of details, but we went to a dance class together and afterwards we lost track of time just sitting around enjoying each other’s company. And definitely some strong chemistry going on. It’s still very early, but I can’t wait to see where it leads!
On another note, my last relapse felt really humiliating. Mild trigger warning. It wasn’t just because I cracked and did something I don’t really want to do, but also because of the content of what I watched - specifically something the actress said at the end of the video. It was sort of like a veil lifting from the illusion of intimacy and meaning, in a really obvious way. I just don’t feel like watching that stuff again, and I really hope that feeling will last.