downhillfromhere
Well-Known Member
Again, thanks for the support Blondie! I know I’m not alone in this, far from it. It helps to hear that things will be okay no matter how badly I slip up sometimes. I know it’s going to be okay, what matters is the choices we make from day to day, and realising that there have been far more good days than bad days after all.
I failed a couple more times after my last post, twice on Friday and once on Saturday if I remember correctly. Feels like the biggest relapse I’ve had so far. It was all just too familiar, easy to fall into that “good old” routine. I couldn’t stop it, I didn’t even want to. But the lower I go, the more I realise I need to do something, and the need for freedom and for staying true to myself becomes stronger than the need for superficial and meaningless “pleasure”.
I failed a couple more times after my last post, twice on Friday and once on Saturday if I remember correctly. Feels like the biggest relapse I’ve had so far. It was all just too familiar, easy to fall into that “good old” routine. I couldn’t stop it, I didn’t even want to. But the lower I go, the more I realise I need to do something, and the need for freedom and for staying true to myself becomes stronger than the need for superficial and meaningless “pleasure”.