GBS
Respected Member
272 days.
I don’t have urges anymore, it’s just about curiosity now. I realise how phenomenally lazy I have been for a large part of my life.
I watched this TV drama a few weeks back, and in this scene this guy is being tested for fertility so he has to make a sperm donation. He gets given a little tube and ushered into this room. There on the table is what I used to call a “wank mag”. No, they didn’t film him wanking! Anyway, clearly the world outside RN thinks it’s totally normal, indeed almost essential, that a man looks at another naked woman apart from his wife in order to cum. Crazy, huh? Or have I become this self righteous preacher?
I am strangely in a weird place. 4 weeks without masturbating and yet very calm about it. It almost feels like another fucking flatline. I have got so accustomed to no sex that my brain is almost giving up…..I think. I could be wrong. I think my brain is saying that getting frustrated is pointless because there’s no fix, so just don’t get aroused. You can probably tell I am confused. I seem to be controlling my stare of arousal intuitively. Maybe that’s exactly what rebooting is and this is factory settings status.
Still freely admit that it’s worrying and amazing in equal amounts.
Amount of increased affection or intimacy I have had since we talked about it 3 months ago = zero.
I will NEVER go back to pornography whatever happens in my marriage. There….I feel better now.
I don’t have urges anymore, it’s just about curiosity now. I realise how phenomenally lazy I have been for a large part of my life.
I watched this TV drama a few weeks back, and in this scene this guy is being tested for fertility so he has to make a sperm donation. He gets given a little tube and ushered into this room. There on the table is what I used to call a “wank mag”. No, they didn’t film him wanking! Anyway, clearly the world outside RN thinks it’s totally normal, indeed almost essential, that a man looks at another naked woman apart from his wife in order to cum. Crazy, huh? Or have I become this self righteous preacher?
I am strangely in a weird place. 4 weeks without masturbating and yet very calm about it. It almost feels like another fucking flatline. I have got so accustomed to no sex that my brain is almost giving up…..I think. I could be wrong. I think my brain is saying that getting frustrated is pointless because there’s no fix, so just don’t get aroused. You can probably tell I am confused. I seem to be controlling my stare of arousal intuitively. Maybe that’s exactly what rebooting is and this is factory settings status.
Still freely admit that it’s worrying and amazing in equal amounts.
Amount of increased affection or intimacy I have had since we talked about it 3 months ago = zero.
I will NEVER go back to pornography whatever happens in my marriage. There….I feel better now.