779 days sober
6 days no MO
Things ok here. Just a bit nothing happening.
Someone at SAA meeting last night was saying how he has been coming to meetings (first time at our place) for two years, but he can’t stop watching porn. The longest he’s managed in 2 years is less than a week. I didn’t know what to say to him, just some slight platitudes at the end. You know “keep coming back, we’re not judging you, use the support of the group”….that kind of thing. But the real question to ask him is do you want to quit? It’s the whole thing about the reboot process. You either go through it with teeth gritted or you don’t. Perhaps this is wholly unfair of me and I am showing off. But I don’t think so…..this is really hard. But if someone can’t go a week without porn then there has to be a fundamental question to answer.
We all get to a point of boredom in our reboot - journaling can help it be less boring, but the endless days of recovery and not feeding the dopamine cravings are really hard…..but just giving in after a few days I don’t actually understand. Well I do, just not if someone seems to want to stop but when the chips are down, simply cannot get anywhere close to first base. That I don’t get.
Going to suggest some intimacy today. Will report back.