That is a disturbing report. I think you should consider going back to your therapist until you’re feeling better.
Congratulations on your exam results. Don’t throw your career away. I am sure you have important contributions to make.
A little support because I want to become Better
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Congratulations on your exam results. Don’t throw your career away. I am sure you have important contributions to make.
ladysudan
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Have you ever felt lonely in a crowded room?
today we had a dance competition in our college and it was fun but I felt as I needed at least one person to be there with me and unfortunately no one was. I shake it off saying you're fine on your own. But the reality is college is supposed to be fun and make friends and I'm not having fun and I'm not making friends. I dressed all on my own and I thought I was looking pretty...only to end up feeling like shit.
I relapsed.
I still haven't talked to my therapist.
I'm not being able to focus on my studies or music or anything.
I don't talk to my parents much.
Lately I hate everyone and everything.
58 days left for my exams.
today we had a dance competition in our college and it was fun but I felt as I needed at least one person to be there with me and unfortunately no one was. I shake it off saying you're fine on your own. But the reality is college is supposed to be fun and make friends and I'm not having fun and I'm not making friends. I dressed all on my own and I thought I was looking pretty...only to end up feeling like shit.
I relapsed.
I still haven't talked to my therapist.
I'm not being able to focus on my studies or music or anything.
I don't talk to my parents much.
Lately I hate everyone and everything.
58 days left for my exams.
Do you meditate daily? I ask because it can help you regulate your mood.
Too often when we’re angry and resentful we think we have to stay with those feelings until they pass away by themselves. That’s an error. There are things we can do to shift our neurochemistry or, to describe it differently, raise our spirits.
It behooves us to raise our spirits because it shifts how we see the world for the better.
In other words, if you allow yourself to stay discouraged, you see the world through very dark glasses. If you go out for a jog or walk and smile at everyone you pass, I think you will feel better.
You have more control over how you are feeling than you realize.
What can you do to counter the depression? Have you tried exercise, meditation?
ladysudan
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Maybe I'll give it a shot
ladysudan
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Have you ever been in some situations where you are ready to leave people behind but they arent ready to leave you?
What have you done then?
Honestly College isnt the kind of life I thought I would be having. It just feels like middle or high school minus the bullying part.
I hate most of the people around me yet I have to act nice around them. I'm so done being nice. It's frustrating. Frustrating to the level where I put my face on to the pillow and scream but then it would be a muffled scream.
Man I have lot to complain about....how do I make things easy for me....and not let people or studies get on to my nerves?
Im writing as if this is Reddit.
What have you done then?
Honestly College isnt the kind of life I thought I would be having. It just feels like middle or high school minus the bullying part.
I hate most of the people around me yet I have to act nice around them. I'm so done being nice. It's frustrating. Frustrating to the level where I put my face on to the pillow and scream but then it would be a muffled scream.
Man I have lot to complain about....how do I make things easy for me....and not let people or studies get on to my nerves?
Im writing as if this is Reddit.
ladysudan
Active Member
I passed my first year exams of med school.
7 days into 2nd year and now I've to appear for small tests.
My battle with porn no longer feels like a struggle. There are some instances where I had wanted the way porn has presented it. This was me craving for something that is not healthy at all.
The power of real intimacy starts with locking your eyes with a person whom you found adorable, making efforts and excuses to talk to him/her, holding hands for the first time, coming closer for the first time, having your first kiss, the way he/she teases you and I could go on and on. The thing is Love is all about effort.
Porn has always made things so lustful that at this point people have become deprived of real intimacy in their romantic lives. People no longer feel connected or attached.
Everything is worth the wait in Love. But porn destroys everything and makes you dull.
I hope I'll become better. I promise to fail a lot in person so I succeed in public.
7 days into 2nd year and now I've to appear for small tests.
My battle with porn no longer feels like a struggle. There are some instances where I had wanted the way porn has presented it. This was me craving for something that is not healthy at all.
The power of real intimacy starts with locking your eyes with a person whom you found adorable, making efforts and excuses to talk to him/her, holding hands for the first time, coming closer for the first time, having your first kiss, the way he/she teases you and I could go on and on. The thing is Love is all about effort.
Porn has always made things so lustful that at this point people have become deprived of real intimacy in their romantic lives. People no longer feel connected or attached.
Everything is worth the wait in Love. But porn destroys everything and makes you dull.
I hope I'll become better. I promise to fail a lot in person so I succeed in public.