I used to have quite the collection too got rid of it all I could binge pretty hard too start at 9 in the morning and still be at it by 3 in the afternoon wondering where the day went or start at 11 pm and than realize the sun was coming up and I hadn't slept a wink. I am lucky I never lost the connection to my wife. It's funny she knew I surfed porn just not for hours at a time. We had sex all the years through my addiction and to be honest I don't find it any better now that I have given up the porn. It was always good. Now that I have given up porn I find i do have more time to do other things that I missed out on.When I had the "perfect" collection of porn it wasn't enough. I couldn't have a bit here and there like good chocolate.
No. I binged until I felt gross. I lost the connection to my wife. I MO'd way too much to feel good.
I always think it could be just like having a bit of chocolate once in a while but when I go down that road it never is. It's always like eating ice cream until you want to puke.
So no regrets about losing the perfect collection. What I may think it gives me is not actually what it ever DID give me. Never. And next time wouldn't be any different.