Escapeandnevercomeback
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I hope too.I bet you will find the meeting a huge relief. Sorry you're struggling.
I hope too.I bet you will find the meeting a huge relief. Sorry you're struggling.
So where the fuck am I going?
I'll try to fuckin stop. Although it's hard. The fuckin craving has no end. Even when I physically can't anymore, the craving in the mind has no limit.He will understand. You will find kindred spirits there...and the tough love you seem to need. But for now, do your best to stop digging your hole any deeper. Have you tried exercise or simply a walk in nature?
Maybe I can finally start going to martial arts or guitar lessons (two of the things that I've wanted to do for a long time) and tell them I'm going to training or lessons when I'm going to the meetings.Simply say that you're going for counseling sessions? Maybe they'll see it as you helping yourself, while you can keep the nature of it to yourself.
I had a conversation with the guy from the group. I am starting going to meetings soon.Is it today you meet with the support group guy?
Not all the time but sometimes it works.I'm impressed that you've pulled out of the nose dive. See? You can do it.
I know what you mean but, unfortunately, I don't think you could've convince the 12 years old me not to do it because I already had the "addict mentality" which in my dictionary means "Looking for a break from my painful existence". I was bullied on a regular basics and I was very unhappy. I wanted to take a "break" from how I felt every day and this world of pleasure and fantasies offered me just that. I'm sure I would've said something like: "I can handle it, don't worry about it, I won't do it every day, I'll be careful" bla bla bla. It pains me very much to say it but, unfortunately, I was meant to be an addict. It was inevitable. I've had a hard time accepting this.I'm very happy to hear you're going to a meeting. I hope it brings you something useful!
... yeah... porn destroys so much for so many of us. If only we could go back and tell that 12 year old to just leave it the F*** alone!