I got serious about quitting porn about 15 month ago. I understood the reason for my escape and was determined to leave this habit after 25 years of usage. It did not destroy my life, but it destroyed a big part of the joy in my life. Everything in my life had been boring, unexciting, even my kind wife. It also gave me PIED, and social anxiety. When I left porn last year i was able to go 100 days without it, while I tried to understand why i was doing it. I understood the reasons, as I said and It helped big time. I felt glimpses of joy for the first time after a very long period. I found more meaning in what I was doing. But then I relapsed and I have not been able to keep this habit away for more than a month, typically a week.
I fully understand and believe I don't want it anymore, it is not good for me and my life, but I give in after a lot of attempts. I understand the science behind it but I don't know the know how, it seems, of how to attempt it. So, I am here for help. I want to understand how to manage triggers, how to take care of urges and how to get over the bridge when the devil strikes. I also want to use this forum to write down how my trial is going. I thank everybody who reads this, who wishes me best and gives me feedback. I am determined, but I do need help. I am not able to understand how to keep my head straight in the moments of immense urges and in the moments I give in. What are the practical thing I can do? I do feel broken after every relapse, but I understand I need to keep trying and I hope there are more tools out there which can help me. I am writing this after a relapse after a week of abstinence. Counter: 0
I fully understand and believe I don't want it anymore, it is not good for me and my life, but I give in after a lot of attempts. I understand the science behind it but I don't know the know how, it seems, of how to attempt it. So, I am here for help. I want to understand how to manage triggers, how to take care of urges and how to get over the bridge when the devil strikes. I also want to use this forum to write down how my trial is going. I thank everybody who reads this, who wishes me best and gives me feedback. I am determined, but I do need help. I am not able to understand how to keep my head straight in the moments of immense urges and in the moments I give in. What are the practical thing I can do? I do feel broken after every relapse, but I understand I need to keep trying and I hope there are more tools out there which can help me. I am writing this after a relapse after a week of abstinence. Counter: 0