Carnes analysis of childhood origin to addiction is also so relevant:
From a child’s point of view, ”you can abuse me, humiliate me, exploit me, and not even believe me, but by far the worst is if
you don’t even want me.” Fear of abandonment is a constant theme in all addiction. The first core belief of an addict is ”I am
basically a bad, unworthy person.” Abandonment means being unwanted. Children grow up believing that no one will accept them
unconditionally. People will not be there; they can’t be trusted or depended on. They feel lonely, lost and unprotected. If they do
want a relationship, it is because they want something, not because they care. There will always be a price to pay. To be close
means to lose reality or integrate somehow. So intimacy is avoided. As the child grows up, a public front designed to look good
shields the emerging adult from the searching gaze of others, which would lead to rejection. Not being able to count on, depend
upon, the adults in one’s life to meet needs is a key element of addiction. As a child matures, there begins a search for that which
is dependable - something you can trust to make you feel better. There is always sex, which usually costs nothing and nobody to
regulate. When a child’s exploration of sexuality goes beyond discovery to routine self-comforting because of the lack of human care,
there is a potential for addiction. Sex becomes confused with comforting and nurturing. Addiction is a relationship - a pathological
relationship in which sexual obsession replaces people.
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