Hey guys, how are you? After my 8 months streak I managed to go for another 2 until I relapsed yesterday. It sure feels strange to realise how bad you can feel after a relapse. I've had a wonderful insight though: My thoughts are harmless. I used to believe that having weird P thoughts would inevitably lead to a relapse, sooner or later. I don't think this is true anymore.
When I look at my life and how my thinking has affected me because I thought my thinking and its content were relevant, I can see that I got into a lot of trouble many times because of that. Just imagine: How would your life change if you saw, really saw, that your thinking is harmless? For me, it means freedom, ease, and happiness. I'm not scared of my thoughts anymore. What a relief!
A spiritual teacher that I love, Dicken Bettinger, likened our thinking to squawking geese flying through the sky of our minds. Now the sky isn't angry that they're there, nor is it concerned about them. If we develop an impersonal stance towards our thinking, we are free.
Or imagine your thoughts coming to you in a foreign language, say Chinese. What relevance would they have? You wouldn't be dragged down by them and could live your life happy and carefree.
I wish you all a happy, porn-free day full of love and understanding.