134 days PMO free:
Hello Nation, The days are accumulating, which I'm grateful for. There was a definite setback through the dating site, it's a highly explosive gateway to P flashbacks, triggers, and a renewal of withdrawal symptoms (in my case irritability, insomnia, anger, depression, suicidal thoughts, overall pain in my body, back pains, headaches, sadness, feelings of hopelessness, mourning, worrying, a general feeling of weakness and exhaustion [like a plug has been pulled], suddenly feeling unattractive, and unexpected bouts of crying.) Phew! Oh, I forgot that I'm flatlining again
All because I flashed myself with dope. No P, but surrogates, that was enough. Gnnn.
I've decided to not see any of the hook ups anymore, and I'm cutting out M. Hopefully no strings attached and a clean slate. The biggest help for me are the pieces of advice given on yourbrainonporn.com, the posts from you guys, and faith in the cosmos - trusting that it will supply me with everything I need without paying a price for it. I'm not paying a price for love and happiness.
Dope triggers are off the table. Stay strong, guys, let's support each other by staying clean.