I don't know what to say.

[Rockit]

After three bad days, back on the wagon. First time felt great, next two were very shallow. Back to work.

 

[jnv]

Same thing happened to me in my last 2 relapses. One minute everything is alright with controlling the urges'and 10min later, I can't explain why but I Just seem not to care anymore and Im giving in. It's actually as if I'm trying to make me relapse on purpose. Quite a strange sensation.

 

[Rockit]

Didn't PMO, but M'd all the way to O.  Tried it without P, but proved to myself that it's the same thing.

Frustrated.  Gotta be stronger.  I think might be tougher than it was when I started 50 days ago.

 

[Rockit]

Approaching one day.  Motivated today to get through it.

 

[sodonewithit]

I'd fallmout of my chair if we all didn't know that feeling but back on the journey.

 

[Rockit]

It is ridiculous how hard it's been to get back on the horse.  I think I'll need to start setting mini-goals for myself, and start posting here on a daily basis again.  Something to hold me accountable.

 

[fightforlife]

I know what you are going through.
Sometimes when relapsing after a good run, you will lose all motivation and won?t get a fresh start for weeks.
But you gotta stay strong. It?s just a passing phase if you fight against it.
And always stay socializing! When feeling bored, just ask a friend if he?s got time for you. It?s what works best for me and it?s the most important part of my reboot.

Every day is a new chance.

 

[Rockit]

Feeling like I want to relapse, so I am making this post and going to bed.

One day at a time.

 

[ashu]

Hey you are on right track.
The most imp thing for success is to be eengaged all the time. And dont go on bed in day hours.
Fix your goal and engage in those targets. I am applying thesd tecniques.

 

[fightforlife]

Glad to see you?re back!

 

[Rockit]

Glad to see you?re back!

I always nap in afternoon due to my work schedule. This wasn't out of the ordinary.

Going strong so far. One more day.

 

[Rockit]

This has been on my mind almost every day.  I have been trying on and off to stop, and I've been struggling a lot.  I can go a few days, and recently went a week, and then all of a sudden I lose all motivation.

It has been about six months since I have tried to stop, and I do notice I have cut down quite a bit, but I do hope I can stop altogether.

I really want and need to be in control.

 

[Rockit]

Recently went a week, and then had three unbelievable relapse-filled days.  When I am home alone, I lose *all* willpower.

Something needs to give.  I don't know what.

 

[sodonewithit]

You need to give bud because it can be beat if you say so. 

 

[Rockit]

Five hours away from reaching one day.  Having a nap.  I will make it through today.

One day at a time.