Good thoughts, FC.fcjl8 said:Yes, non-orgasm focused karezza style intimacy is very good for us. My wife and I have tried it and enjoyed it and discussed how we both felt about it. I have shared with her what I think about the possible downside to orgasm and the resulting effects on us that linger.
No, we are not committed to karezza. Why? Not sure, maybe we are just mindful, when engaged in sex, of how good the old orgasm felt. Even although that intense feeling is just mere seconds compared to the lovely physical connection of foreplay and touch and all that nice bonding.
I am not, like I was before, and expecting intimacy at the snap of a finger. I just was telling her that she turns me on. hey we sleep together half naked and that gets me aroused!
It was more that I felt hurt that my feelings were not heard but just kind of "shut down"... I do not shut down her equally valid reasons why intimacy is not convenient or possible at a certain moment in time.
This reminds me a bit of long timer PMO abstainers at YBR, like DD and JDoe, DD became unhappy with his very rare intimacy and JDoe seemed to act out his addiction just with his wife instead of his hand. I don't want to take either of those routes!
As I see it, in the final analysis, it always ends up at being in control. As porn addicts we were not in control. Now, as people in recovery we have to learn that we need to always be in control . . . and we are always in control. If we choose to exercise our control we will be able to say no to ourselves about acting out and say no to ourselves when our partner is unavailable or unwilling.