L.T.D. said:
Rough day today....really rough. No pmo as it is never an option. Not gonna share the details of this one but the gf said something to me that caused me to feel like my heart was ripped from my chest and stomped on. I probably took it wrong but what else could she have meant by it? Either way, I told her that I'm hurt but tomorrow is a new day. I'm a forgiving person and she apologized repeatedly. I just need to be pissed/hurt for a day or so. It's kinda funny, before my reboot started I would have brushed this off and felt nothing. It's a relief to feel (even pain) again...as strange as this sounds.
I really want to know what I did in a past life. I must have been Judas or Hitler.
I always thought Judas got a bad rap to be honest.
In terms of feeling pain, I can relate absolutely. I find myself becoming more emotional even in the last week or so, you've been rebooting for longer than me so I can only imagine. I'm not sure if it's an actual physical change, something to do with hormones, or just the new found sense of responsibility and mindfulness that comes with the territory of what we are all trying to do.
For example, we have had a social worker doing visits to our house recently because we are hoping to adopt a third child. Yesterday morning was the most recent appointment. Now we have been through this all before, but as I was explaining how I felt about previous experiences, I started to get a bit overcome and had to pause for a moment. She put a hand on my arm and said "it's okay", which as you can imagine did nothing to stem the emotions... :
All a bit embarrassing, really...!
It's only 8 days for me but already I notice so many changes happening and emotions/feelings are a big one.
Bloody hell I'm getting all teary just now... stay strong matey!
