After what iv been through in the hospital I can only say that in a nutshell, after everything iv been through (and that's a lot)
IM SORRY GUYS....I WAS SICK AND LONELY........ HAD BEEN SUFFERING FROM INSOMNIA, DEPRESSION, AND ANXIETY, AND ADDICTIONS..
I TURNED TO NARCOTICS & PRESCRIPTION MEDS....I ENDED UP IN HOSPITAL........... AND IN A NUTSHELL.............. I NEARLY LOST MY LIFE......... BUT IM OK... IV REGAINED MY FAITH....MY BELIEFS AND RELIGOUS BACKGROUND GOT ME THROUGH A HORRID TIME...... AND THANKS TO ALL THE DOCTORS AND NURSES AND EVERYONE WHO HELPED ( GOD BLESS THERE SOULS )... AND I NOW HAVE A TESTIMONY... STRONGER THAN THE ONE I HAD BEFORE... I WAS LITTERALLY GOBSMACKED.
I TURNED TO DRUGS.. I bought l.s.d because I was just bored and wanted to expierence what it was like to trip again...but a couple of days later I got some amphetamine sulphate..
now bear in mind I was already on 100 mg sertraline prescribed from my doctor. id also been taking Xanax and alprazolam to try to combat my insomnia.
anyway after the first time back on amphetamine for nearly 8 years I was reminded why I swore never to take it again. (i used porn on my pc while under the influence of all said drugs)
basically i ended up in hospital after taking nearly a gram of amphetamine.
i had heightened anxiety as well as (svt) Superventricular tachycardia ( heart rate was in excess of 180 bpm) i also had prolonged qt and i was hypokelimic.
it was terrifying literally terrifying...
anyway to cut a long story short im ok now...
I was discharged from hospital on the 10 of January and this is where I am in my recovery so far
no more narcotics, i only take a drug called propranolol its a beta blocker to help with my heart rate and anxiety (prescription medication)
no more sertraline now for nearly 3 weeks,iv come to the conclusion that ssri's can actually make insomnia worse. (so not for me)
i also quit caffine in November last year this has helped with reducing my anxiety and i don't feel it as much now
nearly 6 years since i quit smoking (i spose the bit of hash/spliff i had recently dosent count lol )
anyway im back on here because 1 Addiction remains........................................................ YEP THIS ONE !!!
iv not used porn since iv been out of hospital but i have acted out more than a few times and i spend no more than a few minutes doing so every time...
that's why im here. im gonna need all the help i can get as im getting nowhere trying to quit this sex addiction alone.
Its good to be back guys..... god bless you all and il keep you in my prayers, lets fight this togeather...
p.s im also going to some group meetings with a friend a couple of times a week and this is helping me also..