aquarius25
Respected Member
Well its been a few days since i have posted. I have actually been a bit down. Nothing in particular is really wrong, just feeling sad, lonely, and having a hard time adjusting to life these days. Lots of incomplete in all areas of my life. I feel like I am trying really hard but nothing seems to be coming together. It has been a huge hit to my confidence. I have a birthday coming up soon. I share my birthday with my daughter. I got preeclampsia when I was pregnant with her and had a rushed c-section on my birthday. I don't mind sharing my birthday, I usually love it! For some reason this year has been hard. She is turning 8. I love to honer her on her day, but over the years the sharing has basically become her day. I thought about it and I havn't received a birthday present or anything from my husband since before we had kids. He doesn't even plan a date night or a dinner out. We just don't celebrate me. I usually don't care but for some reason I have been bothered by this. Maybe because he has done so much work on his recovery. He is trying really hard and truly becoming an amazing person yet at the same time I feel like he still doesn't see me. I feel like he still seems to be consumed by himself first. Between that and the kids, I just feel lost in the mix. I don't like demanding for complaining for someone to see me. It just feels so unauthentic then. So that is where I am. Man this post really sounds like I am feeling sorry for myself, lol. I guess I am.