day 12
I had several pmo dreams last night. They were dreams of me relapsing. The dreams consisted of back-and-forth I have had a lot of in the past. Pmo sessions would always start with a peek and escalate from there. They are characterized between me telling myself to stop and there is still time to stop without hurting my brain and also, a desire to finish. This made the sessions really long and resulted in the "unintentional" edging habit. It amazes how much time I wasted on this thing. It feels good to just be at 12 days now. Remembering that at the end of the day if I could go back in time would i have started p and knowing that I would not have has helped a lot so far.
I had several pmo dreams last night. They were dreams of me relapsing. The dreams consisted of back-and-forth I have had a lot of in the past. Pmo sessions would always start with a peek and escalate from there. They are characterized between me telling myself to stop and there is still time to stop without hurting my brain and also, a desire to finish. This made the sessions really long and resulted in the "unintentional" edging habit. It amazes how much time I wasted on this thing. It feels good to just be at 12 days now. Remembering that at the end of the day if I could go back in time would i have started p and knowing that I would not have has helped a lot so far.