ladysudan
Active Member
As sadness continues to prevail and I still can't smoke or drink or do drugs, I'm thinking of buying ukulele. My examinations are over. For 1 month I can watch every other stupid movie that exists or just let my frustration out through music. I have been learning music since 7 years old.
Anyways talking about my reboot journey, the day I shared you all my poem was the day I relapsed. If you don't have any idea how much of pain and sadness I'm going through right now, think of a person who gets all drunk to let everything out and it just feels so relieving to him/her. Yep, I'm that person who's acting all drunk, sad and lonely but she isn't drunk actually.
To my parents and my brother, I wish you knew how much I hate this world and myself and also how badly I wish to never wake up once I fall asleep.
Anyone who's wondering why she's talking about death but isn't dead? Death isn't easy. It's a mind that wishes to die but a body that wants to survive.
Anyways talking about my reboot journey, the day I shared you all my poem was the day I relapsed. If you don't have any idea how much of pain and sadness I'm going through right now, think of a person who gets all drunk to let everything out and it just feels so relieving to him/her. Yep, I'm that person who's acting all drunk, sad and lonely but she isn't drunk actually.
To my parents and my brother, I wish you knew how much I hate this world and myself and also how badly I wish to never wake up once I fall asleep.
Anyone who's wondering why she's talking about death but isn't dead? Death isn't easy. It's a mind that wishes to die but a body that wants to survive.