It's true that if after trying for a significant amount of time, we're still struggling, it means we need to think about finding some people who could help. This is something that nobody seems to convince me to do even though it's obvious I'm being stubborn in the wrong place. There are all sorts of reasons given by people and I've heard all sorts of reasons, including mine, of course. But I've realized in all those, let's say 7 years, of trying actually pretty much in vain with very little success (that's the period since I've found out about my porn addiction) is that what I've been missing in all those years was some actual support (or love? or compassion?) from actual physical people. I'm admitting that a forum community as this one is better than not having one at all but it can't replace an actual present person in your life and that's what I've been absolutely missing because I have no friends and no partner, pretty much I only have my parents these days and they don't give me any support with my alcohol addiction and mental health issues that they know about. I'm not asking for actual strategies, I understand that not everyone who is not a doctor or former addict can be able to do, but I miss the "hugs" you know what I mean? I mean, my parents and I have a good relationship, there is no problem between us but I lack the support from them and the encouragement to have an open discussion. That's probably they don't know about my porn addiction. The gap between generations in my country is really that big, I feel like I'm speaking to someone from fuckin ancient Egypt, the subject of sex is absolutely not discuss at all in my family that I could not bring myself to tell them about my porn addiction even drunk. But I've told them everything else, while being drunk, without porn addiction. The situation is so ridiculous that even in that fuckin state where I can say absolutely everything I couldn't mention my porn problem. Anyway, man, enough with the rant. What I want to say is that I encourage your decision to look for help if you think you can't do it alone, there is actually no shame in this. Maybe the reason why I'm not seeking therapy for my porn addiction (or SA for that matter) is because I'm "afraid" my parents are gon find out? It's fuckin ridiculous. But maybe I still could fake it and say I'm going to therapy for my anxiety? That could do the trick but I couldn't explain SA.