Escapeandnevercomeback
Respected Member
Relapse again. It seems that lately I have conditioned myself to every day, 2 days max. I don't even resist it anymore. I didn't even enjoy it. I had a little bit of urges and I responded to them right away...
Maybe I could even tell what's wrong. I started the year with high hopes (typical), I crashed hard and now it's almost April and my year so far is looking like last year. Exactly the same. What I'm doing is probably trying to run away from that, to medicate my depression and fear of failing this year too. I have so many things to do but my fuckin mental health is shit because of PMO and alcohol. Right now, this is a serious life crisis, I'm scared, I'm scared that I can't fix myself soon enough to rebuilt my life and probably I just gave up and chose PMO every day instead...
Maybe I could even tell what's wrong. I started the year with high hopes (typical), I crashed hard and now it's almost April and my year so far is looking like last year. Exactly the same. What I'm doing is probably trying to run away from that, to medicate my depression and fear of failing this year too. I have so many things to do but my fuckin mental health is shit because of PMO and alcohol. Right now, this is a serious life crisis, I'm scared, I'm scared that I can't fix myself soon enough to rebuilt my life and probably I just gave up and chose PMO every day instead...