DepressedAndOut
Active Member
Today I sort of relapsed.
I was browsing for a realistic vagina toy (which is better than using your hands, if you're susceptible to MO!), and ufortunately I saw many pornographic photos. I didn't MO, but I did MO this morning before I actually browsed the toys. Therefore, nuerons that fire together will wire together even in such scenario.
I'm just so fucking fed up without having any sexual, or even emotional stimulation, whatsoever. It just feels so unnatural and humane. I'm it doesn't make sense to limit everything sexual even if it's artifical. Browsing the odd photo here and there is surely not going to set one back too much?
I'm just so fecking fed up, sick and depressed of this shit. I was doing very well before this fucking lockdown started! It's as though life is fucking tellin me it's not meant to be!! So fucking angry.
I just feel like giving up and just living on Porn and realistic sex toys.
JUST SO FUCKING FED UP MAN!! I bet nobody has been through such restricted sexuality as I have. Even in my PMO days, I didn't fully enjoy it as I was religious!
I have no sexuality, I have no intimacy, I have no connection, I have no one to talk to or to feel physcial with - and I never have and never even came FUCKING CAME CLOSE!!!
My post on here rately make sense because when I'm composing it, I feel really depressed and emotional.
I CAN'T FUCKING EXPRESS HOW HARD IT IS, AS A 37 YO, HOW TO GO ALL THE WAY THROUGH LIFE WITHOUT ANY INTIMACY!
If my fight worth all this effort? I'M BOUND TO NEVER BE WITH A GIRL THAT i TRUELY LIKE - IT'S SO OBVIOUS THAT I'M GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO MAY WELL HAVE TO SETTLE RATHER THAN FIND THEIR DREAM GF!!
FUCK LIFE! FUCK CHADS!! FUCK OFF! JUST FUCK OFF!!!
I was browsing for a realistic vagina toy (which is better than using your hands, if you're susceptible to MO!), and ufortunately I saw many pornographic photos. I didn't MO, but I did MO this morning before I actually browsed the toys. Therefore, nuerons that fire together will wire together even in such scenario.
I'm just so fucking fed up without having any sexual, or even emotional stimulation, whatsoever. It just feels so unnatural and humane. I'm it doesn't make sense to limit everything sexual even if it's artifical. Browsing the odd photo here and there is surely not going to set one back too much?
I'm just so fecking fed up, sick and depressed of this shit. I was doing very well before this fucking lockdown started! It's as though life is fucking tellin me it's not meant to be!! So fucking angry.
I just feel like giving up and just living on Porn and realistic sex toys.
JUST SO FUCKING FED UP MAN!! I bet nobody has been through such restricted sexuality as I have. Even in my PMO days, I didn't fully enjoy it as I was religious!
I have no sexuality, I have no intimacy, I have no connection, I have no one to talk to or to feel physcial with - and I never have and never even came FUCKING CAME CLOSE!!!
My post on here rately make sense because when I'm composing it, I feel really depressed and emotional.
I CAN'T FUCKING EXPRESS HOW HARD IT IS, AS A 37 YO, HOW TO GO ALL THE WAY THROUGH LIFE WITHOUT ANY INTIMACY!
If my fight worth all this effort? I'M BOUND TO NEVER BE WITH A GIRL THAT i TRUELY LIKE - IT'S SO OBVIOUS THAT I'M GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO MAY WELL HAVE TO SETTLE RATHER THAN FIND THEIR DREAM GF!!
FUCK LIFE! FUCK CHADS!! FUCK OFF! JUST FUCK OFF!!!