My routines are far different than 3 years ago or even a year ago I have gone long steaks clean and lots of short streaks. I am no longer obsessed over it and the times i was on it the last few years were far shorter and less extreme... Almost weaning myself off of it over time, and as time goes by the patterns seem to break more and more. Never thought this was going to be a 4 year long process. But I think I really needed to look at what is keeping me going back rather than why I started in the 1st place. Looking at those "issues" and finding more constructive ways to deal with them. I see victory in my future
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Good going, Joe! You're inspiring.
What you say above has been my story lately, the patterns are breaking up, and use is waning, lessening in duration and intensity. Heck, my latest experiences was a matter of getting bored with it...!
Healing the why's is where I'm at, too. Breaking the habit is the first part, and the why's the second.