I do have to work on computer and smartphones
So there is no getting away from those .
I had blockers set up which I removed couple months back . I had a tighter system to get around but yet I used to relapse once a few days while I had the blockers set up . So I thought “blockers didn’t work” and removed all of them .
Result was an uptick in relapses which I am experiencing now .
I have two options
1) Reinstall all blockers and allow myself a few seconds of time to make a good decision to return to safety every time I am tempted
2) continue with no blockers approach and fight it out harder to keep myself away from P/chat but there is always this thought running at the back of my head that “there isn’t really any blockers in place! I could go where ever I want!”
So just to get rid of that “back in the head thought of anything is possible” I can reinstall the blockers and prepare myself psychologically for a longer streak .
Thanks for asking that question
@Blondie
I will change course and install blockers today and see if that improves my clean streaks !
The other thing is my “self confidence” in being able to “stop myself in the tracks”
I lack that “big time” … But I understand my confidence will have a chance to gain momentum only by “hitting those longer streaks”
Lastly one more thing I lack is “self discipline”
I am a ADHD person . Well not quite literally but I do tend to get sooo easily bored and distracted from what ever I am doing . And “that’s a problem” for addicts . So I am doing some meditation and listening to audiobooks to improve my productivity and focus . It seems to be helping a bit .
so these are my extreme measures at the least
1) reinstall blockers
2) gain confidence to reboot by hitting some streaks
3) build a busy schedule stick to it no matter what
4) meditate to improve focus .
5) actually do these things because I am the biggest liar to myself I almost always Plan great , but don’t actually do it for real many times .
Typing this on day 1.
Thanks
@Blondie