Day 7 No PMO| Day 3 No Fap
Thanks everyone. I really appreciate all the replies.
@Sanders, I want to say your reply is really reassuring. Communication really helps. I read a book today where they talked about performance anxiety :its caused mainly from inexperience and pressure to deliver..
. But generally we can say it's fear. And then when we're not relaxed and are tensed we let these flight or fight hormones come in and in order for the body to stay safe... It causes the boner to deflate or release early. I also learnt how that is really overcome-able. Thank God
@walker Glad I could help.
@ Stanfield. Thanks... I really need to do this
@ hopeful. Yeah, me too. I felt alone being a virgin and not having sex before marriage because of my Christian beliefs. Glad I found you... I hope we relate better with each other stories
Today, I was just thinking. I've been so hung up on porn being the problem, when in fact it was my dopamine addiction that was my problem.... Getting high off of porn. Since I had this knowledge, I know now that I need to cut off all pathways to getting that high and from dopamine release and cut off not just porn but even masturbation to bring down my dopamine levels to normal. Right now, it's way too high causing hyper cravings and loss of will power to resist the cravings and temptation to porn which in turn causes high release of dopamine.
Knowing this, I know what I must do. It doesn't mean I'm not susceptible to relapses but like they say.
Knowledge is power. Now I know how to better fight this.
That being said, today I got so many urges.... I just kept on re-playing the videos I watched on YouTube about porn in my head. I kept dodging bullets today as one thought came after the other about the previous porn episodes I've had in the past. I didn't even let them get me an erection. To me, they just wasn't worth it anymore. I can't wait to detox dopamine from my system.
With my meditations on God's word and prayers, more education about porn, sharing my story and reading others success stories... My recovery has received a boost. Here's the video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSF82AwSDiU
Pushing back!
Chris