Today was another good day
I've learned to fill my time with things that I like to do and I'll get the things done that need to be done...but I'll always finish my day with something I like to do.
I've realised with porn flashbacks and stuff that I must redirect my brain rather dwell on those images in my mind. It does work.
I went for a stroll today (down town in a little town in Ireland!) It's funny, but I knew my mojo was present, I felt great, and even manage to make a few woman smile
I havent been this sober since i was 16. I can't remember the last time I had a beer and I haven't watched porn or masturbated in 53 days!!
My number 1 priority now is to see 90 days thru and I do believe that will happen. The biggest difference I have found is that I don't look at anything now....I won't check that TV show to see my fav presenter, i won't mooch on tiktok or fb and I don't engage with those flashbacks.
What do I expect, or what do i want? What I want and this has changed from the start ofvthis journey...I want to be happy and feel complete and fix me...everything else will follow.