AStansfield's Reboot Journal

Flesh

Member
Never been in flatline despite day 40 today but I heard in flatline u're depressed, eventually lot of anxiety, feel like shit so ye I guess you don't feel the "benefits".

I mean I got all that full power these days and very easy to cry for almost no reason, almost suicidal. But I just still have MW, super easy to get an erection, very sensitive, all that stuff.
 

AStansfield

Active Member
Ever since hitting the flatline at day 33 - these past 2 weeks have had no wet dreams and MW has declined in frequency.

Getting an erection from thought still working fine though - so sensitivity is still fine.

Insomnia, melencholy, general lack of motivation are big problems though. Not very good during exam mode, but I have to toughen it out.
 

AStansfield

Active Member
have u tried viagra with PIED does it work ?
After 3 years of Med School it is my semiprofessional opinion that viagra should be a last resort.

The true cure to PIED always begins with a 90 day reboot. If you want to go further the that I can 100% back these 5 activities:

1. Kegel Exercises (3 months of these will do wonders)
2. Arginine/Zinc supplementation (Arginine is the immediate precursor for Nitric Oxide - one of the most important endogenous chemicals which deal with erections. Zinc is required for Testosterone synthesis - having a deficiency will impact the levels of the all important hormone. Supplementation is to make sure you are working with your proper baseline.
3. Lift Weights (this shouldn't even be said - every man should lift weights. The benefits are transcendent.)
4. Cardiovascular Exercise (I recommend Sprinting over Jogging - but getting your blood pumping and having a bodyfat percentage between 10-18% is essential for erectile health)
5. Keep a strong core - the anatomy is a bit complicated but the fascia (tissue) covering your unit's erectile bodies (the work horses for erection) is continous with fascia that arises from your core muscles - namely the exterior oblique. Bottomline is that a strong core will aid in erectile health along with the added bonus of looking good when the clothes come off.

If you dedicate a sincere and honest 90 day reboot with these 5 suggestions then I can 100% guarantee results. Give it another few months (for those hardcore addicts) and you will be a rockstar.

The bottomline is dedication. If you can dedicate yourself then you can accomplish anything - but dedication is always the hardest part of any journey. Anyone on the nofap struggle can tell you this!
 
After 3 years of Med School it is my semiprofessional opinion that viagra should be a last resort.

The true cure to PIED always begins with a 90 day reboot. If you want to go further the that I can 100% back these 5 activities:

1. Kegel Exercises (3 months of these will do wonders)
2. Arginine/Zinc supplementation (Arginine is the immediate precursor for Nitric Oxide - one of the most important endogenous chemicals which deal with erections. Zinc is required for Testosterone synthesis - having a deficiency will impact the levels of the all important hormone. Supplementation is to make sure you are working with your proper baseline.
3. Lift Weights (this shouldn't even be said - every man should lift weights. The benefits are transcendent.)
4. Cardiovascular Exercise (I recommend Sprinting over Jogging - but getting your blood pumping and having a bodyfat percentage between 10-18% is essential for erectile health)
5. Keep a strong core - the anatomy is a bit complicated but the fascia (tissue) covering your unit's erectile bodies (the work horses for erection) is continous with fascia that arises from your core muscles - namely the exterior oblique. Bottomline is that a strong core will aid in erectile health along with the added bonus of looking good when the clothes come off.

If you dedicate a sincere and honest 90 day reboot with these 5 suggestions then I can 100% guarantee results. Give it another few months (for those hardcore addicts) and you will be a rockstar.

The bottomline is dedication. If you can dedicate yourself then you can accomplish anything - but dedication is always the hardest part of any journey. Anyone on the nofap struggle can tell you this!
Thanks bro
 

AStansfield

Active Member
It is currently the morning and I had yet another intense wet dream. I woke up mid O. The last time I had one was 33 Days - currently at 51 days and 9 hours.

Strange to note however is that the volume released is nowhere near what it should have been if it had been a "real" O. The Mind-Body connection is fascinating.
 

AStansfield

Active Member
55 Days!

I surpassed my previous best streak, and it feels great. Today I didn't feel the effects of the flatline at all - I felt like the Master of my own Destiny.

For the next six weeks i'm focusing on studies and physical fitness (almost hit 106kg for my bench).

After that the new semester will start and I will have plenty of time to dive back into the world of dating a far more experienced and confident man then when I first started long ago.
 
55 Days!

I surpassed my previous best streak, and it feels great. Today I didn't feel the effects of the flatline at all - I felt like the Master of my own Destiny.

For the next six weeks i'm focusing on studies and physical fitness (almost hit 106kg for my bench).

After that the new semester will start and I will have plenty of time to dive back into the world of dating a far more experienced and confident man then when I first started long ago.
Good job man dont give up keep going dont let this shit make you less confident it should make your more confinder because you strong
 

AStansfield

Active Member
59 Days and 7 hours.

I just woke up at 5am per usual, but I just wanted to report on the strange nature of my dream.

It was one of those "I dreamt about relapsing" dreams. I haven't had one of those in awhile.

The last few days i've been in a very subtle flatline - some sort of weird inbetween state. It's exciting though that i'm entering the final 1/3rd of the reboot.
 

AStansfield

Active Member
Today is 63 days.

Today was also a pretty horrible day. For no reason at all I had a pretty bad breakdown and was sobbing at home.

When I was a PMO addict my desire to be in a fullfilling commited relationship was incredibly dulled - pushed way back into my mind.

With the NoFap journey I have become more emotional in every way (anger, sadness, happiness, etc) - and the benefit of seeing women in a more healthy and less objectifying way has been a double edged sword.

I was sobbing today because I have been out of a relationship for 2 years. It was a traumatizing one - that individual inflicted deep wounds that warp my psyche in negative ways - my masculine energy and self worth are devestated to this day.

I can't help but think that any other women I would pursue would see me the same way - that it wasn't just my inexperience but that I just instrinically have no worth to someone else. It is especially difficult to banish these dark thoughts during the exam period and even more especially difficult with the heightened emotionality of nofap. The constant vigiliance is tiring - and I hope that a dark day doesn't send me back into the abyss I have nearly escaped.

Send your energy my brothers, and I will send what energy I can back!
 

Jeks

Well-Known Member
Hey bro,
I think one aspect is definitely, that the withdrawals can make any type of feeling have a bigger impact on us, especially the negative ones, which we used to medicate with P. So i think you are totally right on that one and it will get better with time.
However, if thats a re-ocurring thing in your life there are some things, that at least helped me.

I think one thing was, that i came to the conclusion, that it's more about how i think about myself than about how others think of me. When i am confortable with myself, it will also effect the way other people look at me. If i think, that my last relationship was a complete disaster and that my relationship skills suck, i will reflect that and people will think, that my last relationship was a complete disaster and that my relationship skills suck.
If i am thinking, that my last relationship was not as good as it could have been and i will try to change the way i behave in relationships, potential partners will tend to think the same, which is already a much better way of thinking.
Its not about deceiving yourself, but just about how you think about yourself and your situation in my opinion. Subtle changes can make a big difference here.
So i think, the problem really lies in how you think about yourself and not so much about how others think of you

One other thing i would say is, that it is about practice. A lot people, who were really struggling with self confidence and realtionships managed to get better at that. But one thing all of them have in common is, that there went out there and worked on the issue. Its not something, you have to do immidiately, but one day, you will just have to overcome yourself and get yourself out there again.

When you have really crippling difficulties with self esteem, you can also try to work with a psychotherapist on that issue.

I think one of the most important things about this issue is, that you have to convince yourself, that you definitely can get better. There are a lot of people, who improved in this area. There are also tons of good books and content on youtube about this topic.
Try to think about your reboot as a time, where you really tidy up your life and work on issues, that affect your life in a bad way, so that at the end you come out as a stronger person.

Hope that can help a bit. Dont give up. You will find solutions for all those problems. Most important thing now, is to get rid of P. That already will have a big impact on your self esteem and your relationships. Good luck :)
 

AStansfield

Active Member
Hey bro,
I think one aspect is definitely, that the withdrawals can make any type of feeling have a bigger impact on us, especially the negative ones, which we used to medicate with P. So i think you are totally right on that one and it will get better with time.
However, if thats a re-ocurring thing in your life there are some things, that at least helped me.

I think one thing was, that i came to the conclusion, that it's more about how i think about myself than about how others think of me. When i am confortable with myself, it will also effect the way other people look at me. If i think, that my last relationship was a complete disaster and that my relationship skills suck, i will reflect that and people will think, that my last relationship was a complete disaster and that my relationship skills suck.
If i am thinking, that my last relationship was not as good as it could have been and i will try to change the way i behave in relationships, potential partners will tend to think the same, which is already a much better way of thinking.
Its not about deceiving yourself, but just about how you think about yourself and your situation in my opinion. Subtle changes can make a big difference here.
So i think, the problem really lies in how you think about yourself and not so much about how others think of you

One other thing i would say is, that it is about practice. A lot people, who were really struggling with self confidence and realtionships managed to get better at that. But one thing all of them have in common is, that there went out there and worked on the issue. Its not something, you have to do immidiately, but one day, you will just have to overcome yourself and get yourself out there again.

When you have really crippling difficulties with self esteem, you can also try to work with a psychotherapist on that issue.

I think one of the most important things about this issue is, that you have to convince yourself, that you definitely can get better. There are a lot of people, who improved in this area. There are also tons of good books and content on youtube about this topic.
Try to think about your reboot as a time, where you really tidy up your life and work on issues, that affect your life in a bad way, so that at the end you come out as a stronger person.

Hope that can help a bit. Dont give up. You will find solutions for all those problems. Most important thing now, is to get rid of P. That already will have a big impact on your self esteem and your relationships. Good luck :)
Thank you, this read is definitely inspiring to me. Some days are harder than others - but I don't ever see myself giving up. I'm so much farther along as an individual, a man, and as a medical professional than I was 2 years ago.

It's painful, but if I remember who I was back then it is as clear as day that I am not that person now - and there is still an ocean of opportunity to reach even further beyond.

On a final note, I think it is time that I finally spoke with a psychiatrist. I already have one that I see every few months on the account of my severe ADHD. The next time I see him I will bring up my issues. I would prefer to avoid medication regarding the issue though.
 

Flesh

Member
ah yes these days where u're emotional af for "no reason" (outside of withdrawal of pmo) are daunting. Keep going bro !
 

AStansfield

Active Member
65 Days 11 Hours.

Just wanted to note down that I had another wet dream - only this time it was a full on finish when I woke up in comparison to the last time where it was just seminal fluid.

I'm going to take that as a good sign that everything is proceeding nicely. I read that a wet dream sets you back 3-4 days but I'd be willing to wager that it isn't true.
 

AStansfield

Active Member
67 Days.

Today I was texting with a female friend of mine and it got fliratious to the point of sexting. I've read various opinions on this but i'm unsure this counts as a relapse?

Of course I got excited/stimulated by the conversation - but I had no desire to MO and have experienced no chaser effect.

Going forward I will deifnitely avoid this behavior, but I'm just concerned that I just accidently threw away my progress for nothing? At the very least, at minimum, I think I set my progress back a few days or maybe a week. What are your opinions?
 

Flesh

Member
no it's nothing even approaching the definition of the word "relapse" in the dictionnary. Maybe do you confuse sexting being a kind of behavior that leads some pple to relpase coz they get all excited and can't contain themselves then relapse by PMO, with a dopamine response similar to watching porn, I guess.
 
67 Days.

Today I was texting with a female friend of mine and it got fliratious to the point of sexting. I've read various opinions on this but i'm unsure this counts as a relapse?

Of course I got excited/stimulated by the conversation - but I had no desire to MO and have experienced no chaser effect.

Going forward I will deifnitely avoid this behavior, but I'm just concerned that I just accidently threw away my progress for nothing? At the very least, at minimum, I think I set my progress back a few days or maybe a week. What are your opinions?
The question is: Is that part of your "porn world"? If you used that to stimulate yourself then moved to watching porn, it is best to be avoided.
 

AStansfield

Active Member
The question is: Is that part of your "porn world"? If you used that to stimulate yourself then moved to watching porn, it is best to be avoided.
Well no actually, not at all. Come to think of it this is the first time i've ever "sexted" - I've never had the confidence to go ahead with something like this. I've always been very bad at flirting in general let alone going to this level.

Thinking of it that way - i'm just channeling my nofap energy into trying new things I would have had too much anxiety to do. I don't feel as though i've been led closer to an actual MO or PMO relapse.
 
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