guitar1968
Well-Known Member
Hi All, I've been away for a bit getting ready for vacation and then going on vacation. I'm back and ready to report in.
I'll start with the good. 82 days porn free. I've stumbled on some porn here and there, but easily just closed it down and it never lead to anything. Feeling great about that.
Now, let's not call it the bad, but things that could be improved. I was at the beach. A lot of very small bathing suits and of course a lot of fantasy. And, I have been trying to avoid masturbation to orgasm but I did find myself alone in the condo last week and I did masturbate. Again, no porn. So that would be 4 times masturbating in 82 days. The reason I don't want to say "The Bad" here is because I'm really proud of where I'm at. I was an everyday porn person, some times I would have porn up on my screen all day. I thought I could never kick it and here I am 82 days later and I haven't had porn up on my screen at all. I haven't sat here with my pants around my ankles with my family downstairs, I haven't felt the shame of the hardcore porn I used to watch, I haven't been going to live chat sites and so much more. This is a major win. I had hoped to go hard mode but I am finding that to be a little more difficult. But I am not masturbating every day or even every week. It's seldom. I'm waking up with major morning wood. I'm feeling much more alive. I'm focusing on other things. It has been a great experience.
So, I'm on the brink of hitting 90 days without porn. I never want to go back. I want to keep my MO to a minimum and not make it something that I need to do every day or even every week. I want to keep coming back here most days and keeping my mind focused on enjoying life without porn. I now see that it is possible. 82 days ago I didn't think it was possible.
Thanks for all the encouragement. This forum is what has helped the most.
I'll start with the good. 82 days porn free. I've stumbled on some porn here and there, but easily just closed it down and it never lead to anything. Feeling great about that.
Now, let's not call it the bad, but things that could be improved. I was at the beach. A lot of very small bathing suits and of course a lot of fantasy. And, I have been trying to avoid masturbation to orgasm but I did find myself alone in the condo last week and I did masturbate. Again, no porn. So that would be 4 times masturbating in 82 days. The reason I don't want to say "The Bad" here is because I'm really proud of where I'm at. I was an everyday porn person, some times I would have porn up on my screen all day. I thought I could never kick it and here I am 82 days later and I haven't had porn up on my screen at all. I haven't sat here with my pants around my ankles with my family downstairs, I haven't felt the shame of the hardcore porn I used to watch, I haven't been going to live chat sites and so much more. This is a major win. I had hoped to go hard mode but I am finding that to be a little more difficult. But I am not masturbating every day or even every week. It's seldom. I'm waking up with major morning wood. I'm feeling much more alive. I'm focusing on other things. It has been a great experience.
So, I'm on the brink of hitting 90 days without porn. I never want to go back. I want to keep my MO to a minimum and not make it something that I need to do every day or even every week. I want to keep coming back here most days and keeping my mind focused on enjoying life without porn. I now see that it is possible. 82 days ago I didn't think it was possible.
Thanks for all the encouragement. This forum is what has helped the most.