Hi All, I'm back again. Thanks for the support
@JerryTX @Phineas 808 and
@Ihateporn - you all are the reason this place is great.
So, I'm doing good since my last post this past Thursday. No PMO. I've looked a little too much at Instagram and occasionally that has led to taking a deeper peek at some riskier stuff. It hasn't lead back to PMO and I have been pretty good at just walking away again. It crosses my mind less these days and hopefully that's a good sign. I do far better with everything in life when I'm not constantly looking at porn.
I'm going to keep away this week. I need to get the muscle in my brain even stronger. I've learned a lot since last April. The main thing I've learned is that I can stay away from porn for long periods of time. I have also learned that it is very easy to get pulled back in and that no amount of time away means you are cured. It will always be a struggle, but I don't think it has to be a horrible struggle. Just something that I always have to be mindful of. If I start getting pulled back in, if I falter and succumb, I just need to calm myself and get right back on the horse. I've had a mini binge since my lapse and I was able to stop it. I've had a few more falls, but they didn't lead to binges and I've been able to stay away for multiple days before giving in again. Up and down just like life. I'm in it to win it.
Keep at it everyone and thanks again for the support and thanks to Reboot Nation for being here. I love being able to write this stuff down. Good or bad, success or failure, this is the place to work it out.