Coming_Out_Strong
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Glad to see you're back at and already at Day 9. Its good you're recognizing what can create obstacles for you in this recovery. Keep going!!!
Thanks, man. I appreciate the support.Glad to see you're back at and already at Day 9. Its good you're recognizing what can create obstacles for you in this recovery. Keep going!!!
Thanks bro. The tactic is in place, keeping the porn dopamine low.Counter intuitively but the dopamine circuits in the brain are actually getting stronger not weaker around this time.
I am finding being able to be in observer mode (and staying in the heart space) the most helpful.
You can do it bro. Rooting for you.
EW
@Escapeandnevercomeback I can relate to this .I've made some changes but I need to stick to them: No caffeine, no alcohol, no MO, no porn fantasizing. Those are the things that could immediately send me back to porn.
Caffeine makes my urges harder, I don't know why, maybe because it's a stimulant?
Alcohol goes without saying. Jordan Peterson had this to say about alcohol (I'm paraphrasing): Alcohol doesn't make people not realize the consequences of what they are going to do, but it makes them not care about the consequences.
MO, although not bad in itself, it's detrimental to me because of the chaser effect and the way I think, my obsession with the perfect streak, maybe because I'm obsessive-compulsive. I don't know if it's porn induced or not, I've even heard recently that bullying in childhood could lead to OCD for some people. I don't know. The thing is, none of my parents have OCD.
Fantasizing goes without saying as well. Everyone would benefit greatly from avoiding to fantasize porn.
Anyway, today was difficult, I don't know why, maybe the brain is set like that, but lately the days around day 11 have been the hardest.
Hey man.@Escapeandnevercomeback I can relate to this .
I am a heavy caffeine drinker so I may need to stop it altogether switch to another healthy beverage drink .
what really hit me about OCD was that I was sexually abused when I was a kid . I think those trauma are still lurking in my head resulting in my compulsive behaviors? Not sure … but definitely that’s not an excuse for sure to continue the addictions.
My dad has OCD and I have seen him acting out and MOing in my childhood days repeatedly so that may be another childhood trauma to account for my failure as a rebooter . But that’s not an excuse either to continue my bad habits .
I have been journaling sometimes digging deeper into my past to answer my questions about addiction. But I have not Been successful in self diagnosis and reboot either . So I know I have flaws deep down in my life but I have to look for ways to leave them behind for good and move on to become a better human being .
Please don't give up buddy. yes, it is difficult to deal with several addictions at the same time. but when you do that, victory becomes more valuable. If drinking alcohol is driving you to PMO, please stay away from alcohol for a while.Day 15
I crave porn and alcohol, man. I haven't had a drink in what? 12 days? But I crave a drink like crazy. Yesterday the plan was to buy something to drink after work. I passed by the store and, I don't even know how, I didn't stop there. But I am not sure how much I can stay away from drinking. And probably I will start watching porn shortly after. It sucks big time, man.
It's not really how long you can go, though. Every day is it's own day, every moment it's own moment, only related to each other in our minds. You just have to make the right decision in the current day, the current moment. And you will.Day 15
I crave porn and alcohol, man. I haven't had a drink in what? 12 days? But I crave a drink like crazy. Yesterday the plan was to buy something to drink after work. I passed by the store and, I don't even know how, I didn't stop there. But I am not sure how much I can stay away from drinking. And probably I will start watching porn shortly after. It sucks big time, man.
You're right, man! Thanks.It's not really how long you can go, though. Every day is it's own day, every moment it's own moment, only related to each other in our minds. You just have to make the right decision in the current day, the current moment. And you will.
Thanks, man.Please don't give up buddy. yes, it is difficult to deal with several addictions at the same time. but when you do that, victory becomes more valuable. If drinking alcohol is driving you to PMO, please stay away from alcohol for a while.
Thanks, man. I won't.Taking on the challenge of battling all of your addictions sounds tough, but 15 days - you're killing it!
Think about how far you've come - don't let your progress slip now. It will get easier!