Blondie
Respected Member
Good job on going back to the gas station and being honest and thanks for telling us. You're doing a great job man, 35 days porn free! That is fucking awesome! There is much to congratulate yourself on. Try not to be too hard on yourself, maybe take the advice that's in that book somewhere about Nice Guys having a hard time doing something nice and good for themselves, whatever that would be, only you would know (or should know!)Saturday, January 22nd 2022
Day 35 no PMO
Caught myself being dishonest this morning. Took my four year old daughter to the gas station to get a treat. In the hotcase I bought her a breakfast sandwich and I grabbed two grande breakfast burritos. The sandwich was $3.99 and the burritos were $5.99 each. At the self checkout, I ran the breakfast sandwich three times instead of paying full price for the burritos. We then headed home. No one questioned us or anything. However, when I got home I left my daughter with her mother, went back to the gas station, and asked the cashier to ring me up for another grande breakfast burrito without taking one. Told the cashier I made a mistake ringing up my items when I initially came in with my daughter.
Glad I caught myself. I'm not a dishonest person. I'm not living that way anymore. Trying to not beat myself up for what I did. It was stupid.
I wasn't going to write about it as I feel embarrassed. But I need to be accountable for my actions.
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DAY SEVEN No More Mr Nice Guy Journal
YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON ON THIS PLANET RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR NEEDS, WANTS, AND HAPPINESS
Do you measure your self-worth by comparing yourself to others? How has this affected how you feel and behave? Are you an approval seeker? What would happen if you stopped seeking approval?
As I reflect a little bit more on this I think that I will often seek approval from others through the use of social media. For example, virtue signaling by posting an inspiring quote that I read or pictures of myself that I'm proud of. Ultimately the behavior in and of itself is self-seeking.
I've found myself doing that as well on social media in the past, and I just don't go there anymore. Why waste the time an energy with people who don't even give a fuck? Nice job figuring that out for yourself. That book (No More Mr. Nice Guy) is a great book to read at this time, keep it up. I've been going through it too, and have been trying not to smile all the time, especially if I don't feel happy (mostly with my girlfriend). I'm sure that might seem stupid, but for me, it's part of my "pleasing personality" that I had to do in the past to keep the peace and have everyone "like" me. So I've cut that shit out this last month and it's been nice and freeing. It's the little things!
Addendum.
Fuck porn!