you're killing it brother. Congrats on the two days of meditation. I'm with you on that, meditation is not an easy routine to get going. It's amazing what the mind will randomly think up in a few minutes isn't? The last few days I've been getting back into my stretching/yoga routine again in a somewhat meditative way, and it's been real good for me. I'm still working out, but with finals the last couple of weeks, that has not been my greatest value.
This is good, unsatisfaction will get you to ask all the right questions, which it looks like you're doing. I hear what you're saying with this one. Over the last couple of years I've been achieving some great personal dreams/goals, getting off porn being one of them, however, over the last six months I've been feeling pretty blahh about quite a few things in my life, which has led me down the road of self-reflection. One of the worst parts about porn use is that we use it to dodge fixing things in our life, or even trying to think about it, at least for myself that was the case. However, with the mind being free from all that filth, I've had the ability to see things as they really are, both the good and the bad, which is just how it should be.
Sorry this had to happen. If you need to visualize, I'm tall and sexy!
I think you would love both of those books. The first being one of the better masculinity books I've ever read, that the latter just a classic in self-development reading.
Same here, this is actually one of the reasons I started eating like a pig months ago, at least initially. At that time, I was slowing down in my gains of muscle or getting stronger, thus, I thought I'd start doing a semi-dirty bulk. Unfortunately, I was alreadly at a weight where I needed to lose weight (fat%) and eat less, thus, my current predicament. Lessons learned though, I'm going to lose this extra fat while trying to keep what I've gained, and then I'll figure out ways to keep going forward and gain muscle and strength. You live and learn.
Nice job Smoken!
Keep killing it brother