I got careless the last few days. Today was a really close call, I really need to sharpen up and stay vigilant.
Things have gotten out of hand regarding eating habits, physical activity and social media. Been feeling pretty bad some days, almost depressed again. And I started seeing someone I really like hanging out with, but I realised I am not really attracted to her physically. It hurts me to think that I probably need to break it off, because I like her so much. It’s been so good to get to know someone in that way, like I’ve been wanting to for so long.
All of that just pushed me to a point where I just wanted to feel good again. So I went to a chat room for a while a couple of days ago and again today, before I got to my senses and stopped.
I can’t go back to the way things were. Now I need to get back to my routines, stay active, keep working on things and stay away from all porn and substitutes.