FiveFortyFour
Active Member
Day 11
Confession time. I've been slipping. The past two days, when I went to bed, I've been letting dirty thoughts enter my head. I haven't O'd yet from it, but I've been humoring the thoughts and masturbating. I've been through this process too many times to not know that this is the crack in the foundation that makes the whole building crumble. I need to stop.
I've been trying to keep a regular sleep schedule, I've been reading before bed, I'm actually tired when I sleep. It's just this little naggling issue that seems tiny but is entirely lethal. I'm thinking about building a new habit of prayer for sound and pure sleep before bed. Strength to keep my thoughts on heavenly things and not lapse into lechery. It's all I can think of for right now.
I gotta remember by who's strength I'm doing this. I know victory is closer now than it's been in a long time.
Confession time. I've been slipping. The past two days, when I went to bed, I've been letting dirty thoughts enter my head. I haven't O'd yet from it, but I've been humoring the thoughts and masturbating. I've been through this process too many times to not know that this is the crack in the foundation that makes the whole building crumble. I need to stop.
I've been trying to keep a regular sleep schedule, I've been reading before bed, I'm actually tired when I sleep. It's just this little naggling issue that seems tiny but is entirely lethal. I'm thinking about building a new habit of prayer for sound and pure sleep before bed. Strength to keep my thoughts on heavenly things and not lapse into lechery. It's all I can think of for right now.
I gotta remember by who's strength I'm doing this. I know victory is closer now than it's been in a long time.