Another story - probably the same as everyone else
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GBS
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683 days sober
13 days no MO
Thanks @Blondie
Getting urges to MO. Brain says just a quickie with sensible wife fantasy and you can calm down. I still resist. Not actually sure why except it seems right that I don’t give in and possibly start on the slippery slope. Can’t even write the word “slippery” without getting thoughts. It’s a tough battle but I do enjoy pain so I know I won’t succumb.
13 days no MO
Thanks @Blondie
Getting urges to MO. Brain says just a quickie with sensible wife fantasy and you can calm down. I still resist. Not actually sure why except it seems right that I don’t give in and possibly start on the slippery slope. Can’t even write the word “slippery” without getting thoughts. It’s a tough battle but I do enjoy pain so I know I won’t succumb.
Galatians51
Active Member
GBS
Respected Member
684 days sober
14 days no MO
Another intimacy session yesterday. Still far from x rated, but there is crucially some connection clearly going on. I think the oxytocin levels are really up. We talked afterwards very honestly about how this could advance. Slowly but surely is the answer. I also said that she was very quiet generally and didn’t discuss. She said that was how she needed it to be, but I wasn’t to read anything into it. It was a very nice discussion and afternoon.
Slight downside is that the urges to MO are huge. And my fella huge. That combo spells trouble. I am not actually sure how I am resisting but I am. I edged late last night which I haven’t done for ages if the definition is getting within half a dozen strokes.
Stay sober kids.
14 days no MO
Another intimacy session yesterday. Still far from x rated, but there is crucially some connection clearly going on. I think the oxytocin levels are really up. We talked afterwards very honestly about how this could advance. Slowly but surely is the answer. I also said that she was very quiet generally and didn’t discuss. She said that was how she needed it to be, but I wasn’t to read anything into it. It was a very nice discussion and afternoon.
Slight downside is that the urges to MO are huge. And my fella huge. That combo spells trouble. I am not actually sure how I am resisting but I am. I edged late last night which I haven’t done for ages if the definition is getting within half a dozen strokes.
Stay sober kids.
GBS
Respected Member
686 days sober
16 days no MO
Very sadly my father’s decline is rapid and I think it’s probably the last two weeks now, maybe less. In SAA meetings there’s a line from the preamble that says when we’re recovered we will be able to deal better with death and grief. That sounds right but is no certainty. I won’t stop coming on here but I may be absent for a while.
16 days no MO
Very sadly my father’s decline is rapid and I think it’s probably the last two weeks now, maybe less. In SAA meetings there’s a line from the preamble that says when we’re recovered we will be able to deal better with death and grief. That sounds right but is no certainty. I won’t stop coming on here but I may be absent for a while.
GBS
Respected Member
688 days sober
18 days no MO
Tough times with father severely unwell. But he’s not in pain and has loving care. He will slip away peacefully I know, so we will look back on this as near perfect. Just not right this sec.
Read a nice Robert Browning quote today, as follows:
”When the fight begins within himself, a man’s worth something” - just let that sink in for a moment…..I think it’s a gem
Stay sober and fight hard gentlemen.
GBS
18 days no MO
Tough times with father severely unwell. But he’s not in pain and has loving care. He will slip away peacefully I know, so we will look back on this as near perfect. Just not right this sec.
Read a nice Robert Browning quote today, as follows:
”When the fight begins within himself, a man’s worth something” - just let that sink in for a moment…..I think it’s a gem
Stay sober and fight hard gentlemen.
GBS
GBS
Respected Member
691 days sober
21 days no MO
I seem to be in a good mood, but things here are pretty low. The end is in sight as is the magic 700 and the end of my 23rd month of sobriety.
21 days no MO
Cheers pal. And a cool dude emoji, I am honoured (spelt correctly).Ten more days to go, you got this.
I seem to be in a good mood, but things here are pretty low. The end is in sight as is the magic 700 and the end of my 23rd month of sobriety.
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Galatians51
Active Member
My deepest condolences to you, I am sorry for what you must be going through.
