Another story - probably the same as everyone else

GBS

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683 days sober
13 days no MO

Thanks @Blondie

Getting urges to MO. Brain says just a quickie with sensible wife fantasy and you can calm down. I still resist. Not actually sure why except it seems right that I don’t give in and possibly start on the slippery slope. Can’t even write the word “slippery” without getting thoughts. It’s a tough battle but I do enjoy pain so I know I won’t succumb.
 

Galatians51

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Getting urges to MO. Brain says just a quickie with sensible wife fantasy and you can calm down. I still resist. Not actually sure why except it seems right that I don’t give in and possibly start on the slippery slope. Can’t even write the word “slippery” without getting thoughts. It’s a tough battle but I do enjoy pain so I know I won’t succumb.
💪💪
 

GBS

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684 days sober
14 days no MO

Another intimacy session yesterday. Still far from x rated, but there is crucially some connection clearly going on. I think the oxytocin levels are really up. We talked afterwards very honestly about how this could advance. Slowly but surely is the answer. I also said that she was very quiet generally and didn’t discuss. She said that was how she needed it to be, but I wasn’t to read anything into it. It was a very nice discussion and afternoon.

Slight downside is that the urges to MO are huge. And my fella huge. That combo spells trouble. I am not actually sure how I am resisting but I am. I edged late last night which I haven’t done for ages if the definition is getting within half a dozen strokes.

Stay sober kids.
 

GBS

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686 days sober
16 days no MO

Very sadly my father’s decline is rapid and I think it’s probably the last two weeks now, maybe less. In SAA meetings there’s a line from the preamble that says when we’re recovered we will be able to deal better with death and grief. That sounds right but is no certainty. I won’t stop coming on here but I may be absent for a while.
 

Gracie

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Sending prayers and thoughts your way. it is always hard to lose a parent. Take care of yourself.
 

GBS

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688 days sober
18 days no MO

Tough times with father severely unwell. But he’s not in pain and has loving care. He will slip away peacefully I know, so we will look back on this as near perfect. Just not right this sec.

Read a nice Robert Browning quote today, as follows:

”When the fight begins within himself, a man’s worth something” - just let that sink in for a moment…..I think it’s a gem

Stay sober and fight hard gentlemen.

GBS
 

GBS

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691 days sober
21 days no MO

Ten more days to go, you got this. :cool:
Cheers pal. And a cool dude emoji, I am honoured (spelt correctly).

I seem to be in a good mood, but things here are pretty low. The end is in sight as is the magic 700 and the end of my 23rd month of sobriety.
 

GBS

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692 days sober
22 days no MO

My father died in the very early hours of this Sunday morning. So I may be absent for a while.
 

Gracie

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I am so sorry to hear this. Please know I am praying for you. May you have strength at this time.
 
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