Thank you friendSorry it has been rough, but I'm glad you draw the line at escalating.
Someone pointed me to this free resource. If you try it and it helps, let me know. I'll recommend it to others. easypeasy
If it doesn't work, that's useful too.
Thank you, pal.Nice to have you back @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11 - I think it’s not unhelpful that you realise that a return to PMO means getting right back to your lowest point and aiming lower. This is similar for alcoholics and gamblers. I was never an alcoholic but I knew a few. If you have one drink after a year off, you have to down the whole bottle and more (or wherever you’d got to when you stopped). I was a gambler. I gave up. Started again - and when I did it was immediately at the colossal level I’d left at.
It’s dopamine and the brain. Simple really. Fucking annoying too. But the more you realise it’s a straight fight between you and your brain, the better chance you have of winning the fight.
Keep going pal.
As you probably know, “flat lines“ are normal during withdrawal and beyond.Day 5. Yesterday was filled with so much anxiety. My brain wanted it's feeding, and it threw a tantrum like a child. It got my attention, but not today. I'm tougher than that. No MW. Friend down below is shrunken and lifeless. Feeling good overall though.
I actually have come to enjoy the flatline because it means everything is working and I'm healing. It also gives me a break from urges and allows me to focus on being better in other areas.As you probably know, “flat lines“ are normal during withdrawal and beyond.
Doing my best, man. Thank you.The brain, that is, the addicted part, will do whatever it thinks it needs to to survive. Nice job getting through it.